I would hope that I would learn early on that not making a decision is deciding not to decide and is a decision in itself.
I would not waste so much of my life in non-productive or counterproductive activities, such as worrying.
I've had two Achilles heels in this lifetime: until recently, I retrained my childhood's naive trust in others — a fact on which most of the wrong decisions of my life have been based; and I've too often let others browbeat me into being a human floor mat. If we let people wipe their feet on us, they will. No one does this to me any more; I have nobly defended my rights for the past 30 years. I hate authoritarianism with a passion; it brings out the worst in me — so I avoid authoritarian persons.
If I could change myself into a neater, more organized person, I would; the way of the clutter maniac is hard.
Otherwise, I would accept myself as I am. And what I am is largely the product of a life of poverty and pain, plus the teachings of the parents God in His wisdom chose for me. I have done as well as I could with what I was given.
God chose to give me only one small talent, which I could use to try to bring encouragement and perhaps inspiration to others. In His wisdom He did not give me the 10-talent status that would have brought wealth and fame — and disruption of my chosen contemplative life.
So now I ask you: examine your life. What has God done for you? What would you change if you could live your life over again?
The answers may surprise you.